Dearest ____,

i would like to send u my greatest apology. to be honest with you i dun realli noe if i deserve another chance to apologise to u..i cant stand myself sometimes..i duno how u are able to put up with me...i honestly do wonder wat the hell u see in me... i have a shitty temper even tho i wasnt upset at u..but the fact that i was pissed and agitated... u managed to get a shot of me COuntless times! and u never seem to complain...y dun u complain..at least i'll realise im shitty..but then again..i realise it la..and i noe my temper so damn well..but once my temper is ignited there is realli nothin that i can do to stop it..only time will cool it...i feel sory for u..u deserve better..u honestly do..but why do u even bother with me..i dunno..like i said b4..i shout and thn say sorry..but is there any use? coz i will do it all the time wehn i get agitated and thn i apolgise..liek i said..cryin over spilt milk or killin someone and sayin sorry..i dun think its a very effective way.. hmm..i dunno why im riting this here..mayb heaps of ppl will read this and go 0_0.. are we breakin up? the answer is NO..BUt.i just want a wake up call or liek someone to splash water on me..cold water.. heaps of ppl have told me that u are a nice guy and i should throw my "xiao jie pi chi" on you..or u will most probably ditch me in the near future..i dun realli need a rocket sceintist to tell me that..i noe u are great .u are alot better thn me..and i noe the stuff i do seriously dun deserve u.. i can honeslty tell u ..im tryin my best ..i seriously am..my leaf is still in the process of turning..but its hard i admit..its liek a leopard can never change its spots... grr..im so childish someimtes..i feel like the world is collapsing when somethign goes worng or not in my way..wat rong with me??! im spolit! thats the world... im upset at myself for shouting at u when u did nth..and when i recovered from my outburst u were liek how u were usually..like nth happen..-_-" WHY so good to me..i realli wonder why... and u contiued to help me with my favours...sigh..with the amount of favours u have helped me with in our past 2 years + relationships..i think u will be rich alr if i gave u $1 for each favour..

all i can say is i hope to be stronger and more able to control my temper..

and to pray that my next ignition will not be too soon in the future or at least i can calmly face it..

love u always
the ignited "xiao gong zhu"